karina.

Monday, February 13, 2006

long post. just to let you know.

been reading this book Gifts by Ursula K. Le Guin. it's superly duperly nice.

It's a queer business, making oneslef blind.
To cheat, to look, one glance, only an glance- the temptations of course were endless. Every stip, every act that was now so immensely difficult and complicate and awkward could become easy and natural so easily and naturally. Just lift the blindfold, just for a moment, just from one eye, just take one peek...
i did not lift the blindfold, but it did slip several times, and my eyes would dazzle with all the brightness of the world's day beofre i could close them.
Learning to be blind was queer busincess, yes, and a hard one, but i kept to it. The more impatient i was with the helplessness and drearienss of being sightless the more i raged against the blindfold, the more i feared to lift it. It saved me frm the horror of destroying what i did not mean to destroy. While i wore it, i could not kill what i loved. I remembered what my fear and nager had done. I remembered the moment when i thought i had destroyed my father.
If i could learn to use my power, i could learn how not to use it.

it should be our lit book. hahaha. nah, maybe not.

tell me, what's the point of trying so hard, to climb through the postitions for so many years, only to find out that some other person just comes barging in after 2 weeks? (its just a statement, and i'm not referring to anyone, in case u're wondering..) and what's the point of having a good reputation and achievements, when after one little mistake, it's all taken away from you? urrrgh. maybe i should just layback and quit. that's a thought. but then, all these years would be a waste. sigh. happy thoughts please. happy thoughts. o.oh... we did the quail egg thing today!! so darn cool!! heather and hannah are so cute and lame.. hahaha they're marrying off their eggs. lolx. with a priest and dowry and stuff.. hahaha x) I CANT BELIEVE I ALMOST STEPPED ON BOB (heather's egg)!! so freaking scary.. and funny at the same time. hahaha. ok. pe tmrw!! hoorayy!!

just wanna be with you... NOT (:

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